Friday, November 29, 2013

Reflections: One Year Later

I apologize for the three week long radio silence. My life was thrown some amazing curve balls this month and I am relearning how to balance my life with all the new and wonderful things that are all vying for my attention. 

Yesterday, my apartment was filled with the sounds of laughter, friends who have become family, pumpkin spice, apples baking, and a whole lot of wine. It's funny, a year ago I sat down in my parent's kitchen and talked to my mom about the direction for my life. I was tired, ill, unhappy, and un-joyful: all of which is not my normal. I was convinced that the road I had been on for two years was not the path I was supposed to be on, but I was paralyzed by the fear of changing it. As I sat and talked I realized that there were so many things in my life that I wanted to be different. I wanted time for friends, for community, for yoga, for coffee chats, for reading, for my family, for my boyfriend, and for myself. The life I was living left no room for all of the things that I held most dear and the thought of continuing down the same path was frightening to consider. 

So I made a plan. A life altering and seriously divergent plan from the one I had set for myself (and if you know me, you know that new plans terrify me). But I was convinced that my life needed to be seriously overhauled, and one year later as I sit in my kitchen surrounded by my family of friends, flowers, and candles, I realized that I had done it. I had truly leapt into the unknown, dreamed big, opened my heart, mind, soul, and stepped fully and presently into the dark and you know what the amazing thing was: I accomplished everything that I had dreamed of last December.

So today I am filled with miles of gratitude and have found the courage to lean in to the uncomfortable. 

I hope that you had a moment to say thank you to yourself and those around you who alter your life everyday. We all could use more people to uplift, support, challenge and change us. Be that for yourself and for someone in your life who has made all the difference. 

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